I am like so angry at the world right now. Okay I'm probably saying all these now because mm I need to prep myself for results slip tomorrow. So I already kind of know what to expect and all... but seeing it ON the results slip is just extremely out there and makes you have to accept the harsh reality. And having the teacher's comment scares me because teachers never like me. It's just the way we roll...
So yes. I am angry at the world. For making my life revolve around studies. I hate it and I don't see WHY it is soooooooo important. Do I think that studying would at all help me achieve my dreams? Not really. Do I think it makes me a better person? Maybe. But so do other things. Why is it so important that I do so well in school and then move on to some fancy college studying more fancy things when I could do mm stuff I'd be so much happier doing? I really really really don't see why I need to be studying my ass off, mm to be happy in the future? Srslyyyy? Especially when none of my dreams revolve around things I'd achieve from studying.
What I'm most angry about though... is that I don't think I'd ever have enough courage to take the risk and trail off and do what I think would make me happier. Of course I know a lot of people would also be against it... But even if they aren't, I don't think I'd dare to. Yes, I'm a coward, at many many things. I would love to blame myself. But I think the world kind of has to share some of the blame too. For having a society like this.
Why can't we all just do things we WANT and LOVE to do. WHY.
WHY.
Because life is just like that...
Ew. Hate the world. Hate life.
I am still a teenager. I am allowed to express such angst. Although I know I will read this entry one hour later and laugh at myself for sounding so stupid. But as of now, I just need to urghh let.it.out. even if it mayyyy be exaggerated a little. I mean, I don't REALLY hate the world and life you know.... But you know...
Obviously not at my most coherent state. At times like this, a song helps.
Because it's cute. Because the lead singer's cute and wears cute stuff. And because I wish I had a silver lining.
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