my mind, it goes kind of fast
i'll try to slow it down for you.


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Dear Arina,
Please always remember that you live only for yourself. That you can love and trust someone so much and still have them disappoint you so badly. You'd probably be someone's disappointment too. But that's fine, because everyone else lives only for themselves.
Please just hang in there. Work hard and you'll earn yourself with a rewarding life ahead. I believe you're destined for great things... Well duh, you are like HOW COOL?!
Love,
The only person who always and forever be there for you,
Arina

Lately, one of the most important persons in my life have been acting like quite an ass. It makes me sad but it also makes me realise how I've been dependent on too many people too much. From now, I resolve to being a lot more independent.

No, I don't plan on being a loner and a hater. I still love the people I love. I must just make sure the next time someone turns his back on me, I don't act like I'm so surprised.

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I made this, hoping to motivate myself through the painful grueling mugging days to come...


Hehe quite cute right! :D

But seeing how today, being Day One, didn't work out too well, I'm doubting the effectiveness of it helping me through the next many days. ):

Aye sorry my posts lately have been full of misery. I'm not that angsty all the time, promise. Just the times I happen to blog. Don't expect a change though, I'm guessing the next few days would be full of misery too.

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Dear Shi Hui,
I'm sorry 210808 freaked you out. I love you (x beyond infinity).
Love, Arina

To anyone else that I freaked out, I'm really sorry. I tend to get a bit emo-nemo at times, more than usual occasionally. (And no, I wasn't planning on killing myself because I'm all about my "pre-determined time to die". So if I had tried and it wasn't time yet, I would've survived and that would be worse.) But really, thank you so much for caring. I love you guys (: And extra hearts go to Shi Hui, Cheryl, Benji and Keith. Thank you iluxxxxxxxxx

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The day started with a bad omen and I knew the day wasn't going to go very well. But I wanted to face it anyway, because I've had it with running away from things.

To everyone who's helped me survive. Thank you very much. I love you all. And please don't worry, I just need to pull myself together.

To the potential horrible days ahead, bring it on. As tough as it gets, I will emerge. I just have to believe that some day, I would've exhausted all the bad days I was destined to have and then I'll live a happy ending.

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When the most exciting thing that happened today is seeing a certain someone rolling her eyes in slow motion... I know it's a sign that my life right now is so darn terribly unexciting. ): But seeing how promos are soooooooooooooo close, I guess it's supposed to happen.

Ahh well, Spring/Summer09 is coming too :D So all is not lost, still some exciting things to look forward to. Oh! I came across Marilyn's show package for S/S09 and I find it lovelyyyyyy :D



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As promised! :D

SINGFEST'08 was omgsoawesome:D It was also hot and stuffy and painful and dirty and vulgar and really really tiring, but it was worth it. Because I insisted we be RIGHT in front for Jason Mraz, we had to slowly maneuver our way to the front in between performances. But ohgod it was soooooooooooo extremely gross upfront because it's soooooo squeeeezy and not only is heat coming from the weather, you could feel the heat radiating from PEOPLE. Especially really stupid people who wear BLACK. And well, as with all encounters with lots of people, would come lots of vulgarities because people are just hateful beings. I was so super duper tired by the time it was Jason Mraz, that half the time I wasn't really standing. But I didn't need to, because seeing how there were people around, I was still kept upright. (We managed to go ALL THE WAY to the front by the way, like we were so close I bet if we looked hard enough we'd be able to see Jason Mraz's nose hair.)

Jason Mraz totally owned the show of course :D (And any other non-Mraz fans would agree.) He sounded soooooooooooooo extremely super live. And he is soooooooooo charming. Like he would laugh and giggle and talk and play games with the audience. AHH. :D

OneRepublic was REALLY GOOD TOO. I was surprised how they didn't sound ANYTHING short of what they sound in audio. AND THE BASSIST/VIOLABOY IS SO CUTE:D OHH. I got a OneRepublic Fiji bottle! So fangirl, I know. But I really didnt intend to get it, he just flung it into the audience and I didn't bother trying to catch it because everyone around me was like HOW TALL. But it landed straight into my lap, god knows how, so I got it anyway. :D I have it on the shelf of my table now. With OneRepublic cells. Haha.

Panic! was fine. But the mic stopped working on Brandon for a while, and he didn't know it because he's probably used to singing without hearing himself. It was so sad. Because he was SINGING HIS HEART OUT. But they wasn't any sound. Everyone of us was trying to tell him, but he didn't get it. After a WHOLE SONG, when he wanted to talk to the audience through the mic, did he realise it wasn't working. Ahh well. I was quite happy they sang lots of songs from their old album though because I loved them back then and only knew the older songs.

WE MET JAMIE SCOTT. HE IS OMG SO GOODLOOKING. "When will I see your face again" has been on my playlist for so very long, but I never bothered to find out how he looks. I would've loved the song SO much more if I knew how bloody gorgeous he is. Haha so yes, we were at some corner, where mundane people like you and I would walk. And he was just THERE. And I, being me, just shrieked and he shrieked back at me. We took a picture! But it's with Shi Hui, so I'll post it some other day when I have it.

PCD was kind of surreal. Maybe because I was rather zonked out by then. They didn't sound good but they looked perfect, with their dance moves and all. Like completely right out of the TV screen. I used to think only Nicole was pretty, but they're all equally hot. I especially liked the brunette. Either my math failed me because I was tired or there were only five of them... Isn't there supposed to be more?

Alicia Keys was late. and exhaustive. I think she sang close to two hours. But I was sooooo tired by then, I actually slept through half her performance. Hah. Sorry. But she sounded really good whenever I heard her. And she was complete with her backup singers, who I'm sure Alaric would have loved if he saw. Hehe.

So yay okay as a whole Singfest was fierce and I love Jason Mraz. Hopefully next year's got a line up as good as, if not better than this year's. :D

Oh oh and before I go,


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Ahh life has been rather exciting lately (: And I have a new toy which I am very very pleased with, despite it being big and scary.


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D:

Like I was annoyed enough trying to read geog notes): But as always, someone/something just has to come along and make me feel so much shittier. And maybe I'm just being bitter and a bitch because noone is obliged to tell me anything if they don't want to, but sorry I cannot help it that I am so completely repulsed right now. Especially since I'm actually SO FUCKING NICE TO YOU. Which mm, doesn't happen to many people, so it's got to mean something when I'm nice to you. And well, I find it a little ridiculous that YOU, OF ALL PEOPLE, pretend not to know... that I'm the kind who's nice and expects mutual niceness, it's just the way I roll.

Urgh and now is REALLY not the time for me to be such a baby because I have a lot more to study for geog test tomorrow. Oh god, snap out of it, Arina.

It just makes it so much more worse that I don't hate you and that I can't even if I want to. Although of course, this would be the most childish reason in the world for me not to like when I've been all hearts to you for the longest time. And well, if you read this, which I think you would, and think that it's you I'm talking about then mm, I'm sorry I feel like this. I really don't want to, but I can't help it.

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YAY SINGFEST IN A FEW HOURS. I'm super thrilled nowwww :D

Haha if like Cheryl, you want to listen to Singfest over the phone call me when the time is right and I'll put you on speaker. Except you'll probably be hearing more screams than anything else, but it's worth the try (: Here's the lineup! If you want to know when to call hehe

1500 Stacie Orrico
1550 Jamie Scott & The Town
1640 OneRepublic
1740 Panic at the Disco
1840 JASON MRAZ <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
1930 (Rubbish, seriously)
1950 Rick Astley
2050 Pussycat Dolls
2200 Alicia Keys

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

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