my mind, it goes kind of fast
i'll try to slow it down for you.


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So, that was three days of skipping school. I was partly unwell so I should be forgiven.

The whole school skipping thing started off because of angst-ridden me. And the past days have been spent soul-searching, or so I tell myself. Thank you dear vanilla soy lattes for being there for me these few days! I am about to die of like caffeine overdose or something. I had about 8 vanilla soy lattes in three days. And mind you, two of them were ventis. Must stop self from seeking solace in vanilla soy lattes.

Today was a much happier day. (Well, it sort of was. Until a while ago... But more of that later.) I finally got my prom dress! :D Well, kind of. It isn't with me yet cus it's being altered now, but at least I don't have to look for one anymore. So that's one burden off me. Searching for a dress was killer. Everything I wanted off the racks were either really lame/ugly/didn't fit me. All these excluding the designer dresses I wanted that were at least 2grand and that never in a thousand years would my dad pay for. Then I had the brilliant idea of wanting to get my dress tailored. And I was totally aiming for this christian lacroix dress from f/w2007 to be tailored

until everyone managed to convince me it's extremely gross and that it will make me look like a dumpling. After all that, I finally decided to go for something really really formal and long and flowy. And I found one today. It's black and not crazy and wild like the dresses I usually crave, but I like it. It's long and elegant and classy (SO ME! I KNOW RIGHT) Haha Screw all you haters who think short people shouldn't wear long dresses. I would post a picture of the dress but that would totally ruin the surprise... but if you must, think the Calvin Klein number that Alicia Keys wore for CFDA this year. (I know, of all people... her. But sorry, I can't think of anyone else with a similar dress.) Haha. I still have yet to get shoes and a clutch and accessories. But whatever, at least I've gotten my dress.

A while ago, Daddy reminded Aunty Rani that she would be leaving in December. When I say leaving, I meant leaving for ever and ever. For those who don't know, Aunty Rani's been my maid for fourteen years now. So it's going to be dead hard without her. I mean, she does EVERYTHING around the house. She even irons my freaking underwear for godsake. No other person would do that for me. More than that, she always been, for fourteen years, listening to my whinings and my bitchings and she's always been like my bigger sister and BFF. I don't know what Daddy's thinking, really. But he's decided that she's to be sent home and nothing would change his mind. My dad's just REALLY stubborn like that. I don't know if he's thinking of getting a new maid or if he intends to leave us as we are or if BITCH is moving in. But how in the fucking world am I suppose to survive if either of the three happens. I don't bloody want a new maid, it's like freaking hard to even find a decent one. If he thinks that we can manage ourselves, think again. My brother doesn't even turn on switches without yelling for my maid to help him. Noone in the house knows how to cook anything other that instant noodles and the pizzas with readymade crusts you add your own toppings on and pop into the oven. Like seriously. And if he thinks I'm going to allow BITCH to move in. HAH. I would plan on moving out along with my brother and sister. I'm sure I should have a relative out there willing to house us. Or so, I hope.

As much as this is EXTREMELY hard for me, I have to be able to pull myself together and act like it's alright. I have to. For my sister. It may be hard for me, but I know it's harder for my sister. She has been with my maid all her life. Other than to school, my sister's always at home with my maid. So they are extremely extremely close. This would be the second time in her life my sister would have to say goodbye to a motherly figure, and she's only 10. Once my maid is gone, I really have to step it up as a big sister. I need to be there for my sister. There's noone else. My brother's got his own life and daddy's just himself. My sister means the world to me. Like seriously, if there is one person who keeps me alive from day to day, it's her. Whenever I think of doing something silly, I don't. Not because I don't want to, but because I don't want to have my sister to suffer. I know how much my sister cares for me and looks up to me. For all that, I must really pull myself together. I cannot show my sister that I'm sad that Aunty Rani's leaving. I must be the one to show her that it's fine and that life's going to go on just as well after that.

I know I may sound melodramatic. To most people, leaving their maids are nothing. They probably just change maids more often that Linsay Lohan goes into rehab. But it's different for us. My maid's been the one there for me all the times I fuck up. She understands me and everything I've been through better than anyone else. And to my sister, my maid's probably like a mother.

This whole post had made me all miserable again. But I promise that when I get off this computer, and face my sister, I will show her I'm strong and try my best to keep her happy. Bye. V

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Like thank god Fendi won. He's awfully cute and so is his mum. Plus he's got a kick ass voice. And I would have DIED if Victor won. Ew.

Taufik was totally awesome and owns my soul. I haven't seen him in about two million years and after seeing him perform I miss him so bad. And MYBG made me think of Mark too. WE NEEEEEED TO CATCH UP D:

I don't believe I'm saying this but the Click Five frontman is kinda cute. Haha he's so tall and fucked up, it's just adorable.

V

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Screw all the times I try to justify why I don't blog often enough.

These are among the times I really want to knock myself against a nice hard wall about 60times or until I split open. Just to yank my guts out and stomp and spit on it. I don't fucking know what's wrong with me. And I hate it. I hate it that I'm feeling so fucking miserable without a freaking reason. Like seriously Arina, what the fuck is wrong with you. At about now, I can sit in one position doing and thinking about nothing and start crying for no fucking reason other than that I feel miserable. Stupid stupid. Seriously, why the heck are you like this.

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It's goodbye Paris and sad sad me ): Paris was so awesome kickass. But it's not like I've seen all the shows, knowing how rarely I actually go online nowadays. Let's just say I'm a busy person...

Or not. I have about an hour more before options start. And after that we're going to Katong/East Coast for a bloody Cultural Landscapes excursion. Yeah, I'm sure there's alot to see. Fucking waste of time, it's like 5 bloody hours long.

Fasting month's ending soon and I've been a very good girl thus far. I think I fasted like the most number of days this year :D With half the intention of making myself sober from the shit I've eaten and to lose weight. Not that it actually works. I weighed myself last night. I lost like 500grams. That's like the bloody weight of 5 pick-and-mixes. Gee. Plus, since I actually eat less, I forgive myself more for indulging in shit. So I think it eventually makes no difference.

I can't wait for Hari Raya only because I have been craving for ketupat since last week. I've already wiped out about half of the cookies and shit from home that's meant to be for Hari Raya. I am not looking forward to visiting people I only see once a year and having to act like I'm actually interested in people who strike conversations with me and having to act like I know someone when I don't ever remember seeing the person.

BFFEEEEEEEEEEE's birthday yesterday!!! :D HAPPY BELATED ALIFAH! (Although if you read this, GO AWAY! Haha what are you doing on my blog!) My sister is my favouritest person on Earth :D I love every bit of her, even when we quarrel sometimes. I can't believe she's already ten. Ten is old. I think I get the whole "parents being protective" thing now. I still can't bear to see my sister going to like the shop nearby on her own even if she's probably old enough. I don't mind seeing other kids go though. It just seems like the world is too nasty for my sister. Okay whatever Arina.

Before I go! Just so this goes with the flow of kickass old men... :D :D :D
JOHN GALLIANO!

















Yay! Galliano's a genius :D :D :D I remember I hated the first John Galliano show I saw. All the theatrics and the models looking like trannies didn't do it for me. I LOVE HIM NOW! :D And this show looks like enormous fun! Like I so need to see the video for this, i bet it'll be freaking awesome. The detailed shots are so fucking cute too! And I love all this for being quite wearable despite all the theatrics.

Okay, I'm done now. I have about 30mins left. I'll find something dumb to do. Like sleep. Or rip magazines. BYE

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AYE! Sorry for the very incomplete post yesterday! You see, I was blogging on the classroom computer when A CERTAIN SOMEONE barged in and commanded me to let her use the computer. Mm, yes, so I published it just like that. Heh because I'm not used to clicking the save draft button. Hee, so yes, that explains for the incomplete post. And I don't even remember what I wanted to say, so I won't continue it anymore.

My last Math SA in RG tomorrow! Woohoooo! But I haven't finished studying as usual, and I'm like not even halfway through... Looks like I won't be visiting Dreamland tonight): Oh well.

I would go on blogging about school and life, but it's so darn unexciting I swear. Instead, here's to show you TWO VERY AMAZING Spring collections! :D Both in one post! Ahah, indulge yourself in awesomeness, cus here goes :D

KARL LAGERFELD











:D :D :D I KNOW RIGHT. Uncle Karl is so brilliant :D I totally dig the sheer pants. And yes, I know everyone's doing it too, but it looks extra good here! I am in love with the shoes too! Even the makeup and accessories were perfect!! YAY KARL! :D :D :D

IT ONLY GETS BETTER!!! Here's Valentino! Which I absolutely absolutely absolutely adoreeeeeeeeeeee!
















I looooooove how this is so bloody perfect and so spring!! VALENTINO! ): WHY MUST YOU GO! WHY MUST YOU RETIRE! WHY! WHY WHY WHY WHY! ): For the oblivious, this is Valentino's last Ready to Wear collection. He's got one more couture collection in January then it's goodbye Valentino. Some woman, I can't remember who, is taking over. ): I don't like women designers lah. I like nice old men like Valentino and Karl. Oh well. Except for the fact that there wasn't as much red as i expected in the above collection and even though it wasn't as BOOM(sorry bad vocabulary, is at a state too depressed to think) as I expected it to be since it's Valentino's last rtw, I LOVE IT TO BITS. I even love the polka dots, and that's something. Oh well. I LOVE YOU VALENTINO like I would even tattoo your name across my face if it means that you'll not retire yet. LOOK HOW CUTE HE LOOKS IN THE LAST PICTURE! (Sasha looks super cute in the background too!)

): It's funny how I was quite happy when I started writing this and is quite sad after typing the above paragraph. Oh well, okay! I'm off to do Math now. TOOODLES! And good luck munchkins!(If you're having Math tomorrow too)

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I have like the deadest blog ever. London ended a very long time ago and Milan came and went, and I didn't blog the whole time heh. It's Paris now! YAY I was looking forward to Paris sooooooooo much more than the other fashion weeks.

I'm only here now because I have more than an hour more before Chem&Art starts and I refuse to do Math because I just did an entire revision exercise. We've got some fucked up Math SA on Friday and it makes up like 30% of our entire Math grade.): Ew right. Whatever, I study better at home anyway and I vow to study tonight... After watching Prison Break that is. And maybe Heroes and Weeds. Haha. Okay wait. I WON'T WATCH HEROES AND WEEDS TODAY. Just Prison Break because it's so goddamn exciting now and I am ITCHINGGGGGGG to watch it. Go start watching Season3 of Prison Break now if you haven't! The first two episodes were kickass! And I'm hoping they retain the excitement unlike Season2 which got quite boring halfway.

Because Wenda tells me to upload pictures from Paris fashion week because she's too lazy to find them on her own, and because I am a very nice friend with nothing better to do since I'm at the classroom computer with no other better pictures... :D

VIKTOR&ROLF! Never in a thousand years would I have thought I would ever fall in love with Victor&Rolf! But I was pleasantly surprised! :D LOOK LOOK! And check out the mouth set! How genius! :D






YAY VIKTOR&ROLF!

Because I still have time to burn, Jean Paul Gaultier!









They're mostly not very wearable other than the white outfits at the end and it looks more Fall than Spring to me, but they're enormous FUN! Haha I just think the whole army-pirate thing is cute :D And it has this whole Galliano feel to it, somehow... I think I can imagine him dressed in most of the outfits... In a manlier version of course. AND LOOK! It's Gemma Ward! I haven't seen her walking for any shows in a LONG LONG time! Haha Lily Cole walked for JPG as well, but I'm not a fan. Heh.

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