Sunday, June 22, 2008 23:18
And this marks the end of quite a sad June holidays... I don't remember doing anything too exciting really. And there were countless of study dates, which I highly doubt did much good to me, because CTs start tomorrow and I feel as dumb as ever. And it would come as no surprise if I completely completely flunk it.
I have to applaud myself though, for trying. Because I've never really ever mugged. I mean, there was secondary school which I just shitted my way through, like I would cram insanely the night before the exam and then come to school, making people tell me as much as they can about the subject in like the hour before the test. And then there's primary school, which was just plain nonsense because you never really needed to study for anything. So yes, this is my first ever mugging period of my life. Not a very perfect one, but really not that bad considering I was a mugging virgin before this.
(I always surprise myself with ways I try to feel good about myself.)
I know an Oscar speech wouldn't come after my CTs because by then I would realise how bloody completely fucking screwed they went and then feel like I shouldn't be thanking anyone. So the speech comes now...
Okay so like thank you everyone on my MSN contact list I have asked endless questions to. It's like so bloody impossible to try an explain things online, especially to an idiot like me who takes foreverrrrrrrrrrr to comprehend something so simple, but you guys are all so nice and patient awwwwwww :D And to everyone who has put up with my endless "OMG I AM HAVING SUCH AN AWFUL DAY." because every day I try to mug becomes a really awful day for me. And to the existence of online shopping who has been like the complete perfect companion, for being there like at every hour of the day because buying something would ALWAYS make me happy even if I don't get it instantly. (HEARTSSSSSSSS to everyoneeeeeeeeeee) And Shi Hui gets extra hearts because she is the awesomestest BFFE in the whole entire universe. And so does Nabil because he's always the one who becomes the victim of my relentless rants about everyone and everything and manages to knock enough sense and spirit in me to think I would do fine for CTs.
It's funny how knowing what your horoscope says really changes the way you live the day. Today, Shi Hui told me my horoscope said I should take things easy and not to punish myself. And I was just so calm and zen and totally not freaking out the whole day. And it was a lot easier to be productive like that. Because I have been all jittery and freaking out sooooooooooo much in the past few days and I am just so bloody unproductive when I'm like that because I would be busy whining or coffee-swilling or binging (OMG the amount of junk I have consumed in the holidays is just immense).
Let's see what it says for tomorrow:
"You find it easy to work with other people and tend to pour a lot of energy into those around you. You are able to find assistance in whatever career changes you decide to make now, whether it be to a different area in the work place or a total new change. Success is indicated in areas of education, politics or the law. You know how to attack and solve problems, whether they are personal or public. Chances are that your social skills make you popular with almost everyone. You have a natural grasp for the political and for handling the public. Because your passion can be so intense at times you may experience some power struggles. You may find yourself coaching young people this afternoon--an inspiration. The next few days are social."
AHH SUCCESS AH. So like I'm totally going to ace econs :D And coaching HEHE I wonder what I can possibly be coaching to young people... Maybe tomorrow I will teach my sister "HOW TO BE LESS OF A PRINCESS" because she has been so completely ultimate princess lately, like even her teacher's complained. Lesson #1: Big sister is always the better princess. So embrace the fact that you're not the big sister and stop being such a princess. There's only room for one princess in the house.
Ahh well, okay Arina, enough. Off to read a bit off Geog until I fall asleep with notes sprawled all over the bed, because waking up to such a sight gives you the feeling you've studied a lot, even if you haven't...
xx
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