It's strange I guess... When I'm feeling things but don't really understand why. And as much as I might not want to, I can't help it. I don't even know what I'm supposed to do now. I don't know if I should hope for it to fade away or well, share my feelings because I don't know what to expect. And if I choose to do either of the two, I'm putting things which mean a lot to me at stake. So I guess this is the time I back off and hope for well, mm, nature to take it's toll... It's kind of painful to wait though... Shit. This is so freaking confusing. (I bet if Shi Hui or Wenda reads this, they'd be ROFL their asses off because I myself find it quite funny that all this is happening to me... But hey, it's not like I asked for it to happen. :/)
There are so many things I need to say, but cannot say. Maybe I should start writing in like a diary or something. But that's like terribly gay isn't it... :/ The last I wrote in a diary I was like in primary school and I was having like a majorrrrrrr crush on some schoolmate. Hahahahaha I think I saw it a while back, like during the course of my secondary school days, and I had quite a lot of fun laughing at myself. Maybe if I find a book nice enough, I might start. I don't know.
Ayeee this blog entry is probably very irritating because I'm saying things without actually saying things? (Kind of like when you start a sentence and don't finish it...) So I think I should stop here.
But because I need at least a teeny bit of aweseomenees in this entry, here's Luisa Beccaria from Milan Fashion Week (which just ended, HELLO PARIS!). I've never heard of Luisa Beccaria actually, but I came across it today and thought some dresses were really pretty and I totally dig the palette:D (Also overlooking the fact that she casted her daughter. Who is some pre-pubescent 10 year old or something like that. WHAT.WAS.SHE.THINKING.)
:D The second last dress totally owns my soullllllllllllllllllllllllllll
OHHH OH OH OH OH THIS REMINDS ME! That SFF08 is comingggggggg :D And I am sososososososo thrilled! Because it will be sooooooooo much fun, I just know it. Lila, Giselle, Carlos, Habeebah and Aaron are doing it again this year! :D And I miss them all like sososososo much (except for Habeebah, because she's like my cousin and I actually see her from time to time). OH and this year Wenda, Leong and Nabil are coming along too so it should be like extra fun:D EH SHIT, didn't I mention I would end the entry... Oops. Shall express my excitement for SFF another time then TOOOOOOOOODLES
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01:37
"Mac MacGuff: Look, in my opinion the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what-have-you. The right person is still going to think the sun shines out of your ass. That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with." - from the movie, Juno
And after being in denial for far too long, I can safely say I love you for exactly what you are. And I think the sun shines out of your ass.
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Sunday, February 17, 2008 22:27
Today was a very strange day, to say the least... But I don't really want to talk about it. So I'll talk about yesterday instead. Because yesterday was fun fun! :D
Met my cousins for lunch. We had Fish&Co which I have been craving for a while nowwwww! So yayyyy! :D Habeebah wanted to go for some Mac roadshow at Tangs because Fafi was going to be there. Fafi's like this graffiti artist my cousin's crazy about and she just did a collaboration with Mac so she was in Singapore to launch it. It was quite cool, cus Fafi was very cute! :D
Hehe oh and we met Utt too. I still am not going to forgive him for wearing gold eyeshadow on tv, because really... GOLD EYESHADOW?! But like, he was cute anyway :D
It was off to Mr Chong's house after that! Haha we had crazyyyyy fun there! And we were making soooooooo much noise, it was a surprise the neighbours weren't knocking on his door. You know I used to think I was very loud... Until I realised how loud I am is nothing compared to how loud my classmates are... Haha and I'm not even kidding!
It was dinner at PS after that where my CT should us his quite wicked magic tricks. Except I could figure half of them out... :D Because I am way too cool and because it actually helps to have a magician brother. Hehe. After that we went to the arcade. And that too was a whole load of noise making! Haha there were ahbengs yelling at us to shut up but we were all to in the zone of the very very adorable driving game! Haha it's damn cute, I swear. You get to take your own picture so it shows on the screen when your opponents see your car. And you get to throw things at each other like turtle shells and scary pink things that block visions.
Yay I love my classmates! :D They are sooo much fun! I am so glad I opted for a change of combi, even if I would have eventually learnt to like my previous class... Because really, my classmates are like the bombbbbbbbbb! (And don't come boasting to me about how much your class rocks, because really, mine is way cooler... To me at least.)
xx!
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Wednesday, February 13, 2008 22:26
Ahh, it's hearts all over the world tomorrow! (: Somehow, it doesn't actually bother me so much that I don't have a Valentine... (Because seriously, who needs a Valentine when there's Valentino. Not that there is in my case lahh, but I just had to say that because I realised that only one letter is different when I typed "Valentine" out just now.) Haha you see, as gay as this sounds, I am all about fate, destiny and the right time. And I believe the ONE will come someday (on or not on a whale's spout) and we'll live happily ever after. :D (It better happen that way, omg I am so not going to grow old miserable and lonely!)
Hehe so HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! :) I'm quite sure you love me or you won't be reading this (no actually you could hate me, because I used to read the blogs of people I hate). But whatever, AWWW I LOVE YOU TOO! :D
OOOOH I have a new favourite song!! And it's like quite apt with this whole loveydovey thing! :D And you'll like it because I love itttttttttttttt
Okay I am off to write V'day notesssss! I've been on this since forever I tell you. Because I am always sooooo uninspired to write. Except for this one night a few days back where I really couldn't sleep, I had nooooo idea why and I was listening to like alot of Death Cab for Cutie and became very inspired. But wrote only 2 notes in the end. And haven't progressed since. Will listen to more Death Cab and hope to be inspired to write nice notes tonightttttt!
Oh but before I go, PICTURESSSSS. Because I realised how my blog never has pictures! ): From some chalet thing my family had on Saturday! Hehe I LOVE MY COUSINS! THE BOMBZZZZ!
p/s HAPPY 17TH HUSENA MAHAMEDI JADLIWALA! Like I need to say how much I love you?! (; (I just HAVE to say this, I'm sorry: I'd rather beraminah than beramanah.)
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Saturday, February 9, 2008 00:47
I'm not even going to try and justify my lack of blogging. Really. It's not like people actually come here. Oh no wait, there are people who actually come here... I have this blogger count thing which I just checked and I actually get like quite a few hits everyday. Hah. I always knew there were people who secretly love me and want to read what I have to say. Awww.
As much as I think RJ really isn't that bad... I still love my holidays! :D Having nowhere to shop for the past two days have actually been surprisingly good. It's made me stay at home and actually bond with my siblings and my maid! Have I told you that my maid is the cutest thinggggg! Haha last night we were staying up late, pigging out and talking about life (HAH.) and amidst our conversation, she actually made a Paris Hilton reference! HAHAHAHA. I was like so surprised! I think I was telling her how stupid I was... Then she went something like "If you are that stupid, where does that put Paris Hilton?" Okay except those weren't her exact words but like that was what she meant. Haha I couldn't stop laughing after that. My maid is too cool, I have taught her well! HAHAHA
Today, my maid was cleaning out the storeroom. And it was so much fun for the rest of us! Haha we all found little treasures for ourselves. :D And we uncovered tons of clothes from the past! Haha like that from my brother's pre-teen life! Haha he had this "oversized t-shirts and skate shoes" thing then. Like the next time we have a costume party, my whole family is so going ghetto and dressing up as pimps and niggas.
Hmm, one more day and it's good bye New York and hello London! New York Fashion Week hasn't been as exciting as I expected it to be. ): But that's not to say there's nothing I like! One of my favourites thus far has got to be Marchesa!!! Though that should come as no surprise. Marchesa has been delivering season after season and everything's always so beautifulllllllllllll
(Just ignore the fact that the models have completely idiotic expressions.) Ahh... This is just five I like because I'm too lazy to upload anymore. You should go see the rest for yourself!!! Worth that two minutes of your life, I promise.
I love love love love love the third dress! Because I have a thing for feathery and furry things. Oh! Speaking of fur! There has been lots and lots of fur in many of the collections. (I wonder why we haven't seen PETA protesters...) And I know it's very unethical, but I think fur is very pretty. :/ (Just as long as you don't tell me it's rabbit's fur... Because then I would get very depressed.)
So anyway, Marchesa's got this whole fairytale fantasy thing about them which I so completely adore. Like in my own fairytale fantasy thing, I am sooooooooooooo wearing a Marchesa dress! That white feathery one above to be precise. Oh and if you haven't heard, my fairytale comprises of lots of pink fireworks (which I swear are as pretty as Marchesa dresses) and a whale, shooting water out of it's hole thingy with Prince Charming waiting on top of its water spout thing.
Aye, I am such a kid.
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